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Spring break is over, I think I slept through most of it. I really loved seeing Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with my sister. The story made me lonesome for Jeff, but the girl's hair inspired me to re-dye my own in bright colors again. My tiny strip of pink will morph into a red layer of hair. We'll see how that turns out.

The other day I picked up an old book of mine, Zen Mind, Beginners Mind. Every time I go back to my eastern texts I come away with something different. I have been sitting here trying to write about what I gathered from it this time, but I find that it just comes out over-simplified and hollow-sounding. It had to do with the Golden Rule, which I find to be a prime philosophy for life. Because of it, people try to cultivate compassion in their lives; we form some kind of religious practice to help us improve our state of mind. But then I read this line in my book. "To take the posture of meditation at all is to have the right state of mind". What does that mean? That enlightenment is the very thing that drives us to meditate? That salvation is the spirit that causes us to pray or repent or act compassionately? I'm not talking about the fear of hell. This force is that other thing. That thing that makes us treat people right for no reason, and causes us to want to become a better person, even though we're okay to begin with. Don't even think of this in terms of a particular religion. Speak of it like the 'virtue' of Greek philosophers if you like. Its just a question of what causes these questions to arise to begin with.
It seems like such an obvious statement when I read it. Or an obvious question. Whatever. That's why I have a hard time talking to people about it anymore. I wanna talk about subtleties, but everyone, including myself, gets tied down in terminology.

Instead of scratching my head over it, I'm going to go get some ice cream.  ¶ 13:09